We all have that one guy who looks great on paper but there’s something missing. No matter how hard you try to create the spark you just feel nothing and it’s frustrating as hell. I met “tea and puzzles” a couple of years ago and right out of the gate he was everything any woman would want, on paper. You know the type that checks all the wish list boxes:
Have I turned into a cold hearted sociopath? I’m pretty sure I took a Facebook quiz once that warned me of that very thing. Is no longer having a single fuck to give a real thing? I am starting to think that I’ve reached my threshold of crap and I may actually be dead inside.
I rarely watch the entertainment news or read the tabloids except for when I’m standing in a grocery store line up, which is almost never now that I can have my groceries delivered. The other day I was pinned on the couch by a sick sleeping child who I did not want to disturb so I indulged and watched a little ET Canada and Entertainment Tonight. Now I get that they have a job to speculate and sensationalize but oh my gawd people this shit is ridiculous and has to stop!
I did however celebrate Valentine’s Day once and it wasn’t that bad. It all started with what was supposed to be a one night stand, don’t judge me we all do it, the guy was shall we say a “gift from a friend” on an evening when I was in particular need of male companionship. My bestie knew someone who was single and thought we’d hit it off so he set it up and well the one night stand turned into something more serious for a bit and we happened to be together on Valentine’s Day.
Most people just throw the word around like candy and often use love interchangeably with lust and the meaning of the word has really gotten lost somewhere in translation.
Most of the time people will say it because they think they should, they’ll say it because they think someone wants to hear it but do they ever really mean it?
This past weekend I attended a party that now I’m kind of wishing I hadn’t. I was invited over a month ago and at the time even though I was super hesitant about saying yes, the person doing the inviting was important to me so I did say yes. As the date drew nearer I was having second thoughts but he said he wanted me to be there so I wrangled a friend into going with me and I showed up